M101
LIMITED:
CARLOS LOPEZ
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I/you want something that is
uncomplicated but not something a priori uncomplicated, rather
something yet to be complicated. Something who is someone subject to
temporality, not yet fallen but in sight of, grasping for, wary of the hole,
the vortex, the abyss. I/you want something who is someone who will fall,
inexorably, toward me/you, toward complication. I/you want a virgin. Jenna Parker at 86th street,
on the M101 Limited. Jenna sits two-thirds of the way back in one
of the solo seats just behind the accordion pivot point of the double bus.
Scatter shot bursts of morning sun escape the building-shield and flash on
the page of her book every time the bus crosses an intersection. She reads All
Quiet on the Western Front; there is a synchronicity between the sun
bursts and the bullets that tear apart all those young German boys, those
Fatherland patriots, those would-have-been Nazis, those maybe cold war
operatives or could-have-been Gunter Grasses. LIGHT BLAST LIGHT BLAST
LIGHTBLAST . . . my god, this sun, can't read a thing. My god, this sun, I
wonder about their mothers and girlfriends. My god, this sun, when is the end
of this chapter . . . ugh. I/you sit on the bed with a WiFi-linked
laptop, searching for virgins. The curtains are drawn tight, but angled beams
of sun penetrate anyway and they cross each other on the ceiling. I/you sit
on a green, floral print comforter from http://www.bedbathandbeyond.com
($39.99), beneath treasure-map-esque Xs. I/you slather my/your left hand in
friction-heated lube from http://www.babeland.com
($12.99) and apply friction until there is heat. I/you watch an uncomplicated
girl explore her uncomplicated self with uncomplicated fingers and then a
somewhat complicated device. The girl is not really uncomplicated, I/you
think. She is an actress, a budding young porn starlet, a before-that
stripper, a before-that burlesque dancer, a before-that pretty girl in need
of cash, a before-that just for the fun of it high school blow job giver, or
if not, something equally complicated. Really she is not those things either.
She is it - digitized data streaming across the world to my/your laptop where
they are pixilated and displayed. Transmitted electric impulses eliciting
my/your self-generated electro-chemical impulses, these self-generated
impulses, aided by synthetic friction-heated lube of course, stimulating
me/you until a tipping point is reached and then splat. The two solo seats immediately
before and behind her are empty. The bus is not crowded and most of the
passengers sit near the front exit, something that irks Jenna Parker to no
end. The bus has two doors for a reason. Get off at the back and stop
holding up traffic, Idiots! My god, the sun. Enough of this for now. I'll ask
Eliza to summarize the chapter before the quiz. There is a heavy,
tattooed, baggy-clothes-wearing, creepy-eyed Latino man sitting alone in the
couplet of seats just behind the bus' back door. Behind Jenna Parker. Far
enough that he is out of her peripheral vision but uncomfortably close,
especially because of the creepy eyes. Behind the homeboy is a homeless man;
he is mostly refuse and smells like it. The three of them are alone, the only
passengers behind the back door - Jenna Parker, Homeboy Creepy Eyes and
Refuse Man. LIGHT LIGHT LIGHT blast. Jenna Parker cups the palm of her
left hand and places it against her temple as a sun shield. Sandra Washington, MTA bus
driver (M101 Limited), on the phone at home on a Sunday afternoon.
"No one told you to quit . . . No, I can't pick up any more shifts.
Don't you think all the drivers are trying to get more shifts. Well, think
about it dumbass. No one told you to quit . . . No, that's not what I said .
. . It is not . . . What I said was . . . No one told you to quit! I/you am/are a sticky mess
beneath a sunbeam X. I/you sigh because the digitized pixilated data that
just made me/you cum was so complicated even before I/you clicked on her
thumbnail and waited with receding flaccidity for "buffering" to
reach 100%. I/you should have known better, all these data/girls were
uncomplicated so very long ago, before I/you wanted something that is someone
uncomplicated, before I/you understood that the hole, vortex, abyss and the
not having fallen into it but the certainty of falling into it was the only
thing I/you could love. I/you imagine a phone with no
one on one end and Sandra Washington on the other end. I/you hear Sandra
Washington saying "No one told you to quit," and I/you laugh
because Sandra Washington doesn't know she's caught in an Abbot and Costello
routine so she keeps repeating "No one told you to quit," and, of
course, No One, who is on the other end of the phone, who may or may not
exist depending on whether I/you am/are psychic or just daydreaming (the same
can be said for Sandra Washington), doesn't understand why Sandra Washington
is referring to No One by No One's proper name and anyway is quite certain
that he/she did not tell himself/herself to quit. I/you laugh hard at this
because it is funny and because the next "uncomplicated" thumbnail
is taking a long time to buffer. Jenna Parker was uncomplicated
but then Sandra Washington crashed the M101 Limited into a Fresh Direct truck
(http://www.freshdirect.com). Jenna
Parker's head smashed against the metal handle bar of the seat in front of
her. She passed out as the bus flipped onto its side. Jenna Parker woke up to
find Homeboy Creepy Eyes and Refuse Man on top of her. There was smoke
everywhere. Homeboy Creepy Eyes and Refuse Man were happy to have survived
the crash and so they celebrated with Jenna Parker. Champagne would have been
better, at least for Jenna Parker, but none was on hand whereas she was on
hand. Jenna Parker was made complicated. I/you am/are still laughing
about Sandra Washington when the thumbnail completes buffering. These data
are called Jenna Parker and she is exploring her uncomplicated self with
uncomplicated fingers and then a somewhat complicated device. I/you squirt a
dollop of friction-heated lube onto my/your right hand this time. The
data/girl are/is moaning and mumbling, blast blast blast. |